2014 non resolutions.

It's that time of year again, when everyone is spouting off New Year's resolutions which typically include joining a gym, getting in shape, eating better, etc etc.  Honestly, yeah I'd love to look awesome in my bathing suit come June but let's be real.  It's probably not happening this year.  And I'm okay with that.  I'm not typically one to make resolutions because I feel as though I'm setting myself up to fail.  Not so great.  Truthfully, I have been thinking on the topic for a couple days though, and I've come up with some things that I wouldn't mind working on or changing for the long term.  Here's my list of non resolutions:

1. Let go of 2013.  It's been a hard year.  Even though things are better now, I keep finding myself looking back and thinking "a year ago this was happening" or "this time last year I was a wreck".  It's true, I was a wreck and I'm not now.  So why do I keep thinking about it?  I'm in a much better place now with "life" in general and I'm ready to let go of what was.  That leads into...
2. Be happy with where I'm at.  My life right now is a stay at home/work at home mom of 2 little children.  It is messy and hectic, loud and sometimes obnoxious.  There are days I want to run away and not come back and there are days I love it.  Many, many times I have said "I'm going to lose it" and sometimes I do.  But then I regroup and move on.  Because that's what you do, every day if you have to. 
3. Be excited about turning 30.  So this is the year I leave my 20's behind.  I'm not scared or nervous or worried.  I have high hopes for the next decade.  
4. Have more fun/be less grumpy.  I can be really grumpy.  Seth always tells me I am and I can't honestly deny it.  It's one thing to have your husband tell you that but it's another when your almost 3 year old says "you're a grumpy mommy". :( So, I'm done with that crap.  There's really no reason for it. 
5. Accept what I'm good at (and not good at).  I'm going to lay it out there.  I'm not good at meal planning or cooking awesome "made from scratch with organic ingredients" dinners.  I'm not good at getting up early, showering and dressing before the kids even stir.  I'm not good at keeping a spotless house and I'm not good at hosting.  I am good at snuggles in my bed until 8am, pancake and bacon breakfasts, creative ideas even if I don't want to follow through with them.  I'm good at offering advice and perspective on topics to other moms if they ask and keeping up with friends.  
6. Be comfortable with my body most times I look in the mirror.  I'm not perfect and I don't look at myself perfectly.  It's been said over and over, on every mommy and baby blog, but having a child changes your body and unless you were blessed with awesome genes, most people have to work hard to get anywhere close to what they had before.  Throw in the fact that I've had 2 babies in 2 years, and it's even harder.  Do I wish I looked differently?  Sure.  If I put more effort into it, would it help?  Probably.  Someday I might, but today, this is what I am.  
7. Take better care of my teeth.  I had let too much time pass between dentist appointments and unfortunately I'm paying for it now.  I can't teach my children good/healthy habits if I'm not displaying them though.  
 

I think I'll let it at that.  I don't want to give myself too many things to fall over.  I really hope everyone has a Happy and Blessed 2014, and if you do make resolutions, I hope you are successful in reaching your goals.  

hallelujah.

I've seen this version of  Leonard Cohen's Hallelujah all over facebook this Christmas season and I absolutely love it.  I know it's been quite some time since I posted (even more so on this blog) but this is my welcome back.  Merry Christmas and may we all remember what the real reason is for this holiday. 

 

I've heard about this baby boy

Who's come to earth to bring us joy
And I just want to sing this song to you
It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
With every breath I'm singing Hallelujah
Hallelujah

A couple came to Bethlehem
Expecting child, they searched the inn
To find a place for You were coming soon
There was no room for them to stay
So in a manger filled with hay

God's only Son was born, oh 

 The shepherds left their flocks by night
To see this baby wrapped in light
A host of angels led them all to You
It was just as the angels said
You'll find Him in a manger bed
Immanuel and Savior, Hallelujah
Hallelujah

A star shown bright up in the east
To Bethlehem, the wisemen three
Came many miles and journeyed long for You

And to the place at which You were?
Their frankincense and gold and myrrh
They gave to You and cried out Hallelujah
Hallelujah

I know You came to rescue me
This baby boy would grow to be
A man and one day die for me and you
My sins would drive the nails in You
That rugged cross was my cross, too
Still every breath You drew was Hallelujah
HallelujahHallelujah
Hallelujah