changes.

Two weeks ago I found out some news that I've been hesitant to share.  I almost fear that by announcing it, it won't come true.  My very vague ":)" on Facebook led everyone to believe that I was expecting again.  I'm not (although I wouldn't be upset if I was) but it IS something that makes me very happy.  I'll preface this by saying that most people would not see this as a good thing, but in my particular life at this particular time, it's perfect.  So now that I have your attention and the anticipation built up, here it is...

The first week of January will be my final days at my current employer and by default, I will become a stay at home mom (if only temporarily).  I am thrilled.  Since having Delia, working full time has been my greatest struggle.  My measly 6 week maternity leave made me angry and upset and although I've learned (sort of) how to work and be a mom and wife, it's not my ideal life situation.  Paired with the fact that my job has changed drastically in the past 12 months, there have been coworker issues, and I don't have very busy days, I've been pretty miserable.  A couple months ago I was at such a low point that I almost quit on several occasions.  Realistically, I knew a layoff was somewhere in my future so I stuck it out and I'm glad I did.  I'm leaving on good terms with my bosses and holding excitement for whatever comes next in my life.  I'm so happy to have time to spend with my sweet daughter, especially as she nears her first birthday.  Better late than never. 

This is probably the best Christmas present I could have received this year.